Things have been going crazy with work. Also, I've been having some computer issues at home, which I haven't had time to deal with properly because things have been going crazy with work.
This will continue for at least the next two weeks. In the meantime, feel free to post whatever you want in the comments. It'll give me something to read when I finally get back on track.
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Woke up on Thursday with what my mother used to call "the miseries". On arrival at work I actually sat in the car trying not to cry. That went on the whole day and then the next day I just woke up angry. I think because I haven't heard back about the job and can't see how they could have had a better candidate, so what does that say about me? They must have hated me or I interviewed badly or something. I don't know. And I'm angry that an opportunity to really change my work direction with little risk has slipped through my fingers and I don't even know why.
Still I had fun at the footy last night and the poor weather this weekend means that I have an excuse to do very little, which is just what I wanted.
Really sorry. You could always ask for interview 'feedback'? Although they will probably give you some bullshit, at least it makes them feel a bit uncomfortable, having to justify their decision
Yeah, sorry to hear things didn't work out Suze. To address your concerns though, just because they liked someone else more than you, doesn't mean that they thought you were awful. For all you know, you might've only missed out by a smidge.
I agree with Squib. There's no harm in asking for feedback.
Still depressed about it though. Not helping my mood. But I think the flatness is really resulting from (AT LAST) the arrival of menopause. I actually bought a pee stick today to make sure I wasn't pregnant and no, I'm not (THANK FUCK), which means the lack of bleeding heralds something MUCH more welcome. Finally! I'm five years older than every other woman in my family was when menopause hit.
Though I feel a trip to an endocrinologist may be in order because now I'm wondering if antidepressants are really the right thing, and maybe instead I need some of that HRT that metabolises to testosterone to put me back in kilter.
Hope you feel better soon. Congrats on the no more periods thing!
Spoke too soon. Bleeding like a stuck pig and period pain so bad I want to puke. Still, two months since my last one, so at least The End Is Nigh. And since I peed on the stick, I know it's not a miscarriage that's causing these symptoms, which are the sort of thing my sister described before she died (nothing for ages, then uncontrollable gushing, which a coworker said her mum had as well. Glad I work in a place full of women, everyone was very sympathetic when I went home because the period pain was making me ill). In therapy, hubby expressed disappointment that I had reached menopause because it's like closing the door on the possibility of us ever having kids (which I don't get because I thought we'd made the decision years ago not to pursue it any further). I mean, really WTF, I'm glad I wasn't pregnant because who knows how that would have had to go down. I am not willing to go through that at my age. Nope.
Anyway, I'm off to reheat my hot pack and put it on my belly again. I don't know whether it helps but it sure is comforting.
Although (pre-Mirena) I always bled like a stuck pig, I never had period pain. What makes one woman bleed out and another one cramp up and why the hell can't medical science make it go away
In therapy, hubby expressed disappointment that I had reached menopause because it's like closing the door on the possibility of us ever having kids (which I don't get because I thought we'd made the decision years ago not to pursue it any further)
Those two things don't seem contradictory to me at all. Just because you make a well-thought-out decision to take a particular course of action, doesn't mean that in your heart, you don't wish that things could be different, or might go differently in the future.
If my recent experiences are anything to go by, even people who decide not to have kids can still want them at some level, even if it's purely animalistic.
In any case, I hope things improve for you in the near future.
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